A day I woke up to stop narrating my thoughts in my head

So I'm not so good in writing daily life stories or thoughts but considered to start narrating my thoughts than the poetic form of when I'm in the need mood.

Alright this morning after I woke up...I was hoping for some sun just like yesterday where I got things started off in a smooth way, but sigh...I'm pushing myself again BUT not missing a chance to realize with slightest warmth in the temperature that I missing to be in a place where I want to be

that will be in the last after I stop listing the places that I want to visit (just a visit)

Just looking at his picture reminds me of Paris, France or any other UK countries where the oldest colonial times built these sort of sculptures, historic buildings etc.

By the way this picture is taken within the city I live in and glad that I could picture the entire dream in one shot

Next place that I was thinking of to visit is or the place that has always enchanted me is prairies of Canada or just drive along the scenic views only during the summer. The beautiful lakes that gives the fresh feeling of water that calls to stay by it or the mountains that surrounds around to give the strongest desire to love each every moment of it. 

Wanting to experience these, I do want to go with someone not just anybody and not just any close friend either but with someone who actually enjoys, understands and somewhat see these places with the interest that I have....and no if that person has to ditch me for drunk party/club being  in a city of angel...then sayonara (isn't that bye bye in japanese?!)  Im glad that I can recall from one good trip I had with a friend when I went to victoria and that was great, times did bring us to boring station but somehow we pulled out to enjoy it together and not isolating each other. Anyway times are fun and enjoyable than by yourself.

Now where I really wanna be at this very moment is any tropical Island by the south of States... preferably Caribbean...because I would rather sign up to live in a warm weather by the beach where the palm trees are there with nice white sand and ....just relax because there's lot of exotic dances are going in my mind. Seriously if I have a chance I will move the location of my dreams and not be bounded to live because of social status or be proud city for its natural beauty. I have few tastes in life and I believe one should totally live there life of dreams after all once chance to live your life why not live it by your choices than rules.

If there is a face down, its right here !

I write my blog with a free spirit

but when it comes to the point where I want to desperately type something out...

Never get the words straight enough.

This may sound like a good way to start writing anything

BUT WHO CARES!

I woke up today, with a mildness in my heart

Is it because I started sleeping in a direction that I did long time back...

Why could it be a big deal?

Well it does no matter how badly I tried to HIDE  from myself

Because it certainly brings back memories...

What can I say I live of the life by having small things that led to BIGGER events

I miss my teenage life at times just the part from 17 onwards...

As I was enjoying the freedom of what I needed to input towards myself.

Wish I inputted the write amount of hardwork...

Today would have been a completely DIFFERENT world around me...

I wouldn't have woke up alone ~

Tears....after 10 years I thought my emotions has gotten stronger...NO

Im aquarian known to have less feelings with a way more practical life

and I always considered to be opposite to what is said.

I was turning in to the reality of aquarian as I ran with life or RAN away from life to forget certain past.

Isn't that what most of us do? to go away from pain....

Yet I have not let myself down, something that I've craved  in life

A heart that will have true feelings once in lifetime...FOREVER

Now that I have created that feelings...that hand aint there anymore.

Not because its rainy, I want to cry but because it never dried away.

I may feel proud that my feelings are still strong and will be...

Yet it hurts to carry it along and I can't let it go...otherwise my life will LET ME GO.

What hope ! What Dreams ! What surprise! What MIRACLE!~

No such thing will ever happen again....

11 years of reign

Eleven years of reign has to come to an end
Years that passed by had put in various situations
Sometimes I wonder whether they were made for my lessons
Or were they in exist due to my faults

Can't bring back the time that passed by
Yet I haven't lost the spirit that I held Eleven years back
A drive that I promised a commitment and shattered it over the years
still awaits for me to finish the drill

Once in my school life I won the race that was impossible for me
Once again in my life I'm unable to win the race for last Eleven years
Shall needs to come to an end ! with the spirits I hold now...
has more deadlier and strong will to pursue what I wanted
Eleven years of reign is in a closer view of its end.

FWD Notes

Forwards

Boy: 

Is Your Name Google?

Girl: 

No! ... Why?

...

Boy: 

'Cause U Got Everything I Am Searching for....

If a thousand people love you,

I am in that thousand.

If a hundred people love you,

I am in that hundred.

...If ten people love you

I am in that ten.

If only one person loves you,

thats me

I'm Not Shakespeare To Write For U,

Im Not Jakson To Sing For U,

I'm Not Piccaso To Paint U,

I'm Only Someone Who Just Want To Say: I'll always Remember You..!

Love is as much of an object as an obsession,

Everybody wants it everybody seeks it,

But few ever achieve it,

Those who do,

Will cherish it,

Be lost in it & among all,

Will never ever forget it......!!!

To FEEL some one in every HEARTBEAT,

To FIND some one in every THOUGHT,

To SEE some one with CLOSED EYES

and

To MISS some one without reason....

....is lOvE....

Boy : what should I do? 

Girl : just follow your heart.

Boy : what do you think my heart says ? 

...

Girl : I don't know... I'm not your heart. 

Boy : you're most of it. ♥

If I couldn’t spend every second of my life beside you, 

then I would rather waste every second of it looking 

down on you from heaven than be with someone 

else knowing my heart still and will always belong to you.

Never say sorry to one...who ♥ loves ♥ u....never say bye to one....who needs u....never blame the one....who really trust u....never forget the one....who always remember u...........

A Small Boy Found A Tear, 

In His Lovers Eye, 

So He Hugged Her, 

Still The Girl Continued To Cry, 

Boy Asked: 

...Why ??? 

The Cute Girl Replied: 

If For Every,

Tear, 

I get A Hug From U,

Then I Would Cry Forever.....(((~ 

Love meanz to see someone with closed

eyez,, to miss some1 in crowd,, 2 find some

1 in every thought,, to live for some1,, love some

1,, but sure that sum1 is ONLY one

Never waste an opportunity 2 say

‘I love U’ to someone U really like

B’coz it is not everyday U’ll meet the person

Who has the magic to let U fall in love........♥

Relationship doesnt get closer by meetings,
But it is sweetend by THOUGHTS.
I care for u, in my own STRANGE way,
MayBE U’ll never know,
MayBE i’ll never show....!!!

" People who hate you are just the Confused Admirers , They Cant Figure out the Reason Why Everyone Loves you ...."

Behind Every Successful Luv There Is A Friendship. 
But 
Behind Every Separated Friendship There Is A Love..

Happiness + Smile = You

Utter quitely as 1 may hear a heart beat

Let not the words slip off from those lips of yours

As the secrets will reveal

Speak the words in a tale of 2 essence

That the Beats request those eyes to repeat your soft words again

1 may only feel your words with sense of the air around you

And Let our breath not be heard by the world around us

Get closer that even the distance may not part us

And be lost in ourselves with a space for shyness

Another day of pain !

Another day of pain...

Sitting, lying and then sitting and then lying...

Sometimes I stare in the mirror

Every single breath that I breath in and out

Rays of light come in and then disappear to leave me in the dark !

Not giving it in, not going to be weak to listen peoples sacrasm

Ones who live in the world of sarcasm forget that they are nothing but a joke of there own lives

They forget that there sarcasm shows there weakness in my eyes

Not mine !

I'm Aditya, I rise...I rise every morning regardless what weather it could be

I make sure my surroundings doesn't melt me down.

Yet again I'm human, I just carry the title of the Surya(sun) God 

I may not hold all the powers of a sun, but I do hold to feel & prevail them

I strive to push myself ...(pause)

I will strive to push myself in my last breath ...if it takes that long to get myself out

Out to get another thing done !

As long I breathe, only reason I will be able to pull it through is

because of warmth of hope, dreams, family and love...

they hold nothing but a true meaningful LIFE !

approach to me as friend you will receive the love,

come to me as diety I will worship you

BUT if ever come to me as back stabber..

Every ounce of fire will evolve from me!

Who Am I ? to you...

walk in a shadow as the dew drops of night comes upon

take my hand and show me the life around you

the people of your world are so happy because you exist in there lives

Unwillingly I follow you with a curiosity in a heart as to

Who Am I? to you !

You wander and look in my eyes as I have something to say

presence of yours makes me vunerable and yet strong

so vunerable that I get scared to get out of this dream

so strong that I could sense of breaking the walls of this dream into reality

yet I have a question for you

Who Am I? to you!

Everyday a sense of going back in dream while being in reality strives

to bring you out of those dreams, but the reality scares me

if you were to be dissappear as you are the charm of your own world

the attachment I am growing into is the most beautiful part I could ever come across

Who Am I? to you! 

Feel of being able to cross over the lines that stops me from entering your world

I can't break the promises I made in your world

the urge to quit reality and be with you grows stronger

yet you don't seem to panic and rather be num and calm 

because of the trust that grew together during those dreams?

Who Am I? to you!

A new world

You May not be aware of the way I feel

       May not consider the heart I have for you

       May never realize how much I dream to be with you

       May definitely know there is someone who feels for you

As I go on with my life, I feel...

Your beauty is essence of every nature I see

        sight is the every light I wake to

        smile is the fragrance of my awakenings

        graceful walk is the relaxing thoughts I think of

        shadow is the last and first that I strive to see you

If the word love exists in real form...

Your beauty is essence of every nature I see

Your sight is the every light I wake to

Your smile is the fragrance of my awakenings

Your gracefull walk is the relaxing gesuters in my daily life

Your shadow is the last and first that I strive to see you

Lost in the suburbs of street where her eyes shadow on me, as I look up to them they leave me wandering to look for her...day and night the cycle occurs and yet I can't utter the name

 Respect her time : Its understandable a woman does have her own interests to be pursued other than her dreams...she needs time cuz she wants to be the best..she wants to look and feel the best she can for her husband and kids and as a wife..or least as a woman !

If wounds get to painful to live along, then make them your strength..turn every weakness into a powerful source of this being..as many out there are ready to take every single "opportunity" to use those weaknesses. Help those who are unable to eliminate their weakness.

Ey companion...a greatest wish to make you mine has risen...a journey that has a friend like you doesn't need the sunshine to wake up, but with the light in your eyes...the glitter in your expression is none other than the air in the morning...stays as a reminder...many secrets like this exists within me..for you...companion.

Though its night and going to be pitch dark, yet the presence of yours somewhere in the world will now on raise me like a sun emerging behind the mountains...

 Nightmares are certainly not everyone's cup of tea to wake up for, but sometimes some dreams just ends up with enough ache and numbness in a heart that it gets impossible to close eyes and rather be up for the nightmare of reality...